Monday, March 30, 2009

massive mixed feelings

tummy time! This is important as the back of David's head seems to be getting flatter. 

Things have been going extremely well lately. It's actually a shame, since just as everything has fallen into place, I'll be going back to work soon. 

My days at home have developed into a pleasant pattern. In the mornings, I bring David into bed with me and usually feed him there. It's such a nice cuddly time. The rest of the day is playtime, feeding, rocking, sleeping, repeat repeat repeat. There are some days when he goes on a Nap Strike, and those days are less than pleasant, but I think I'm getting better about reading his sleepy cues and getting him down before he gets overtired. But on days he does take good naps, I can make dinner or bake something, do some yoga, work on art projects, spend time online. And even though it IS hard work to take care of a baby, I know I'll miss this relaxed pace of life when I have to return to the office. 

I can't imagine that I could have more conflicted feelings about going back to work. There's a large part of me that can't wait to get back: to see my friends, to have adult interaction again, and even just to work again. I miss designing! But there's an equally large part that's kinda heartbroken over it. I know I'll miss him, and I also worry about the daycare thing. Even though I really like David's daycare, it's not the same as the one on one attention I can give him every day. Honestly I just try not to think about it too much. And if I'm continuing to be honest. . . I daydream a lot about working part time some day. At this point I don't know if I'm cut out to stay at home full time (the main drawback to maternity leave has been feelings of loneliness/isolation); but part time would be ideal. We'll see where time takes us.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

i'll take you down where the birds fly by

Having trouble stringing the words together lately. I swear I always think of things to write here, but then they flit away from me. I guess because a lot of it is so mundane. Do you really want to hear about my struggles with trying to get David to nap during the day? Or cradle cap?  Yeah, I didn't think so. 

So here are a bunch of things: My parents came for a visit. We had a great time. The weather has been amazing and long walks are so good for me and my un-excercised body; the boy mostly just sleeps through them. I have been to a few different moms groups and feel that I don't fit very well into the suburban mom demographic (maybe this is something I should expound on at some point). But I am making friends with some of the younger moms at my church, which is good I think. I can't wait until David starts sleeping a little longer at night. . . I'm getting used to waking up 2-3 times a night, but that doesn't make it any easier. 

Our little guy is doing great though, and I really can't complain. . . I only have five more weeks of maternity leave and I am trying to savor it all while I can. 

And some pictures. 

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

little dude

my favorite subject: a baby and a puppy

asleep in the swing

bundled up for a cool day walk with Mike. 

I tweeted recently about my life revolving around David's naps. It's totally true. If he doesn't nap, he fusses a lot and that makes me crazy. If he naps too much, I get kinda bored and wish he would wake up. Little dude has been sleeping almost ALL day today. I actually called the pediatrician about it since it seems so out of the ordinary. Then I felt kind of dumb because, really, who worries about their infant sleeping too much? 

Thursday, March 5, 2009

why I shouldn't leave baby stuff on the floor

pug in a boppy.

We really need to get a toybox or a toy cabinet or something, otherwise I'm going to wake up to this every morning.